Thursday, July 31, 2008

The Thrill Is Over

OK, so it was fun to be an invalid for awhile. Lying in bed all day, catching up on blogs, enjoying the buzz from the pain meds.

I'm ready for things to be back to normal. I tried going off the paid meds for a day, but apparently the older you are when your wisdom teeth are removed, the longer it takes to recover. Without the meds, the pain is wretched. WITH the meds, however, I remain slightly buzzed all day long, rendering myself thinking unclearly and also a little nauseous.

I only have one week left to stay home with Kiddo before I begin my internship and take on the work of a full-time elementary school teacher. He will be left with a babysitter twice a week, the other 3 days he will be at a local day care center. I'm not worried about him- he'll be fine-- but it's starting to hit me that my time with him is drawing to a close. Other people will be spending the greater part of waking hours with him. Other people will get to hear him learn new words and discover things in the world around him. Someone else will pick him up and kiss him when he falls down and bumps his head. He will sweetly say "please" when he wants a drink-- but someone else will get to hear it.

I'm starting to get a little sad.

And annoyed, that this medication is making me unable to fully enjoy and embrace these last few days of being a full-time stay-at-home mommy.

3 comments:

Munchkins and Music said...

Yeah, it always hard leaving kids in someone else's care. But it is good knowing they will be well taken care of.
I hope you start feeling better too!

Stephanie Wilson she/her @babysteph said...

Oh no! I hope it gets better fast!!

Steph

Erin said...

It's so hard, isn't it? My heart breaks when I think about how soon I'll be back at work.